Author: Masticina Akicta
Date: 14-05-2021
Walking on a Knifes Edge
This is written more then a year into the Covid situation. Covid has changed a lot, many places one could go before to find a lot of energy freely laying around are closed. Even lesser options are much harder these days. The once in a while travel by train isn’t doing to push me above surviving to midrange levels. And with that I am luckier then many others.
Nature can feed, yes but never seems to come up to the level human energy gets me.
I am lucky that train travel still is allowed in my country and train stations are usually capable to retain some energy. In Europe we use trains more. In some countries it is very common for people to use the train to go to their jobs, of school, or university. The thing is with schools shutting down, jobs limiting the amount of people that can show up and universities only opening up a little. The good times are over! Sure they are slowly opening but the big herds of people walking through train stations doesn’t happens as much as before.
As a psy-vampire I can go to a train station, draw energy through a filtering and cleaning system and get out life energy. Some call it bottom-feeding, but I am quite pride on the ways I have worked to long term be able to feed without needing direct donors. And with adjustments living like that is doable. I rather go to a club or a big event but hey gotta take what is given right?
And then Covid came, no more clubs, no more big places where a lot of people get together and even though travel has opened up again and I can feed once in a while. Even train stations are not in the level to really feed m e up to the point I could easily before Covid.
Some weeks I am on a knives edge, that hunger always in my mind. And making my tongue a bit sharper then I hope to have. I really don’t like to piss off other people. Not more then they deserve!
Surviving not Thriving
I know my situation is better then some other vampires, after all blood and donors are much harder to find and get too. Many of us are stuck surviving, not thriving, some of us deep bouncing against the lowest levels we have been in a while. And yes even I with all the methods I have can’t find enough resources. Or at least not to the level that makes me thrive.
Edging on that ever hunger, seeing the tank getting emptier and knowing that you are easier to topple or end up making rough mistakes. A thin skin, emotional less stable and sharper of tongue. It is surviving, not thriving. Also less fed our energy shifts and some people being to notice. Luckily I have a few tricks but yeah I wish I had fed better and hence more stable energy to do more stuff.
Solutions
I think many of us know solutions that work for us. Sang’s have sources of blood, not the best choice and harder to get but there are certain 3rd options. A donor still is the best and getting that donor to you or being able to travel to them is going to be the only long term solution.
For psy-vampires having more then just human energy as sources is one way. Yes, munching trees, I know it isn’t what you want. But you survive… just not thrive.
And me? The few train trips I still can take are my source for the human one… the rest is the vegan diet.
Future
The future seems simple, vaccinations and getting the Covid virus down. That opens up access to things again, travel and that also means food for psy-vampires and donors for everybody.
I get it, vaccinations, ergh. But it seems the science behind it is solid enough and in areas that vaccinate a lot the spread is a lot slower. Nothing is 100% in life as they say. But one thing is sure, we have some weapons against this virus. And we have potential to open up certain things again for our needs.
