Update and feeling Pekish, insight in some future posts and activity

Update and Feeling Pekish

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 4 May 2022

Update

Time for an update, I have been busy. Hunting apartments, reacting, on a few I was allowed to visit and about a month ago I finally moved. It took a while. But also a lot of energy and attention. The market here is insane! The waiting time is… ah I am sure you are not here to me vent over that. It was a hard long search. 

But in the good news, this blog is NOT dead, there are plans. As usual things just had a little enforced break. Some big plans plans are re-awoken too now things are stabilizing. Less crap around the move, more time for other stuff. 

Also upcoming post will be about Ethics, I am co-writing this with someone because ethics is not a simple issue. And to offer insight from a sanguinary insight too. It will be a good post! We are still editing it to perfection

Feeling Hungry

So on the topic, it has been a move, and I haven’t fed in a while. I feel it, my skin feels thin, I react sharper on things, I am rougher around people and a certain hunger. Even animals seem more worried around me then usual. Which is odd. Many of us vampires know what I mean. It isn’t that bad yet but I feel it. Which means I need to feed soon.

I am moved though so I need a new feeding spot, I feed ambient, non contact wise. Lacking a donor right now that is the option I have. For that I need an area where many people either move through or gather for longer times. Not sure if I like a local church for it. 

But I will find a ETHICAL spot to feed. Yeah. I will.

Now, hopefully next week Friday we have the post about Ethics. It feels good working together with others for things like that.

Walking on a Knives Edge

Author: Masticina Akicta 

Date: 14-05-2021

Walking on a Knifes Edge

This is written more then a year into the Covid situation. Covid has changed a lot, many places one could go before to find a lot of energy freely laying around are closed. Even lesser options are much harder these days. The once in a while travel by train isn’t doing to push me above surviving to midrange levels. And with that I am luckier then many others.

Nature can feed, yes but never seems to come up to the level human energy gets me.

I am lucky that train travel still is allowed in my country and train stations are usually capable to retain some energy. In Europe we use trains more. In some countries it is very common for people to use the train to go to their jobs, of school, or university. The thing is with schools shutting down, jobs limiting the amount of people that can show up and universities only opening up a little. The good times are over! Sure they are slowly opening but the big herds of people walking through train stations doesn’t happens as much as before.

As a psy-vampire I can go to a train station, draw energy through a filtering and cleaning system and get out life energy. Some call it bottom-feeding, but I am quite pride on the ways I have worked to long term be able to feed without needing direct donors. And with adjustments living like that is doable. I rather go to a club or a big event but hey gotta take what is given right? 

And then Covid came, no more clubs, no more big places where a lot of people get together and even though travel has opened up again and I can feed once in a while. Even train stations are not in the level to really feed m e up to the point I could easily before Covid. 

Some weeks I am on a knives edge, that hunger always in my mind. And making my tongue a bit sharper then I hope to have. I really don’t like to piss off other people. Not more then they deserve! 

Surviving not Thriving

I know my situation is better then some other vampires, after all blood and donors are much harder to find and get too. Many of us are stuck surviving, not thriving, some of us deep bouncing against the lowest levels we have been in a while. And yes even I with all the methods I have can’t find enough resources. Or at least not to the level that makes me thrive. 

Edging on that ever hunger, seeing the tank getting emptier and knowing that you are easier to topple or end up making rough mistakes. A thin skin, emotional less stable and sharper of tongue. It is surviving, not thriving. Also less fed our energy shifts and some people being to notice. Luckily I have a few tricks but yeah I wish I had fed better and hence more stable energy to do more stuff. 

Solutions

I think many of us know solutions that work for us. Sang’s have sources of blood, not the best choice and harder to get but there are certain 3rd options. A donor still is the best and getting that donor to you or being able to travel to them is going to be the only long term solution.

For psy-vampires having more then just human energy as sources is one way. Yes, munching trees, I know it isn’t what you want. But you survive… just not thrive. 

And me? The few train trips I still can take are my source for the human one… the rest is the vegan diet. 

Future

The future seems simple, vaccinations and getting the Covid virus down. That opens up access to things again, travel and that also means food for psy-vampires and donors for everybody.

I get it, vaccinations, ergh. But it seems the science behind it is solid enough and in areas that vaccinate a lot the spread is a lot slower. Nothing is 100% in life as they say. But one thing is sure, we have some weapons against this virus. And we have potential to open up certain things again for our needs.

December 2020 Update

Author: Masticina Akicta 

Date: 28 December 2020

Looking Back

Happy Holidays? Eh! And let's end this year! I didn't have many postings this year. What can I say, Covid, busy with other projects. Stuff happens! 

But I had a few nice posts. 

• February 23 I had a post about the different roles within the vampire community. The role we tend to float into, not rigid, but take parts off. 
• March 29 I had a post about Covid and Ethical Feeding for Psy Vampires. Aka how to feed safe during this horrible situation. 
• April 19 I talked about Covid and the vampire Community.
• June 23 I wrote about how Summer was in the Town. Ah yes vampires as the sun, aren't we happy about that! 
• July 31 I wrote about Vampires, Donors and Covid. Yes covid again. Isn't it lovely how shot this year was! 
• August 28 I looked back on a peaceful summer
• August 28 I also wrote about Vampire Awakenings, an useful topic
• September 22 it was all about finding your Tribe. An useful thing to know within such a big community.
• October 2nd it was about the Age of Fear! How covid was putting us against each other even worse then the years before! 
• October 18 there was a post about the Nightside Identity, an useful thing to have for most of us!
• November 9th, Elections and Energy. Or in short how the energy around that time was INSANE! As if Eris was having a tea party!
• Ending the year with November 17 talking about how Boxes are for Cats. In short, how labels are useful but we should not try to fit in a box that wasn't made for us. 

Feelings about this month

December is not a great month for me. Due to personal life and some long standing memories. I always take a nice break in December. I don't like how this month easily falls apart and nothing makes sense anymore. Not to mention the last two weeks are lost and one has to deal with suddenly extra "free" days. Free isn't the right word as society has expectations of such days. 

Also the amount of food one has to get in the house, the preparations. I am not a fan of doing a lot of work for a holiday. Like this Holidays should be about relaxation; not about having to run like an idiot to get things done in time, make sure you got enough food in house for the days you can't shop, being sure you are on time with all the long term issues and so on. Also this year was even more fun due to Covid limitations. In short my mood was shot! Blog posts written on a bad mood are not that good.

Things in the Short Que

There are a few upcoming topics I want to post about. Can't make promises but a few should be worth it.

For instance I am still working on a post about awakening the sense as an addition to the sixth senses article. 

There is an article about Prana/Chi/Life Energy. Which needs some more research! I don't like to make things to deep but this needs a few hooks. 

I have an article in the short que about Vampirism and Paganism. Aka, vampires and the witchcraft/energy/pagan community. I am sure we all see how that goes at times. 

I am also looking at a nice basic book list. So new vampires, and awoken ones, can get  a short list what books they probably want to read. 

There is a nice one, feeding from nature, aka munch on trees. Or also known as the Covid Diet! 

And a few more which I need to see if I want to keep. It is always good to have a few articles around that might be published on this blog, or work on ideas flowing from them instead. 

In short I have some topics for blog ahead of me. Just need the energy and mental space to get it done. Also some require research! And I am terrible with research!

Ideas Floating around

I have a few ideas floating around. Which if I can get things to work might get running. Like a Podcast, but that would be a lot of work, a lot of preparation, a lot of finding out just what makes sense to do. And of course who I can invite over as guest. The technical Issues alone will be a lot. And coming year I have a few things to get running in my personal life too. So yeah, at least I can lay the ground work right?

2021 Ahoy

I hope that 2021 quickly brings an end to Covid and that soon enough our world is sane again and functional. That we all can have an as normal life again as possible. 

Still I hope that the lessons of 2020 remain in the back, we did learn to do things different. And some ideas might not be that bad. I didn't mind having to do certain things from home. And just as in War, technology tends to change quickly when shit hits the fan. 2020 was one of those years! And we grew quickly. I got in contact with quite a few people online which else I would never have. Count your blessings! 

So on 2021! May it bring good to many! 

Covid and Me

Covid and Me

Author: Masticina Akicta
Date: 27 April 2020

When Covid Strikes at home

Though I am not sure if this is Covid it certainly seems to be like a case. Before you ask, testing is still limited to certain groups, people that either work in high danger zones, or have complications. So getting tested isn’t really into sight for most of us. But I go by the symptoms and though I still can get out of bed, do the basic things in life. Just with a less air and energy. And a cough that feels suck in my, and lungs that feel weaker.
It being about 5 days ago when I got a little cough. I didn’t trust it so I kept an eye on it. And made sure nobody would come into the house, just to be sure. And this couch in a day or three grow out to one that was stuck. And in the weekend it began to affect my breathing.
So to be sure I called it and got into a self-imposed quarantine and have enough people keeping an eye on me.

Symptoms

Some of you might call me lucky, these symptoms are light with me but they are there. Shorter of breath, that cough stuck I the throat. Less energy and always a whisper of a headache. I have been tracking my temperature for days it has only gone up a tiny bit, nothing to really get worried about. It is there, I feel it, but it is weak and I keep track of how bad or good I feel every day. It goes up and down as it seems my body is fighting it.

Support Network

I don’t stand alone though, there are others who keep an eye on me. Sure they can’t visit me but they do call almost every day and they offer support, for instance bringing some food for a few days now I really am stuck at home. Situation being I don’t keep food for many weeks in the house, cooler space limited. I already did that as much as I could. But you only can keep so much food in the cooler. And sure cans are possible but then I still would have had to bought those cans a before this all struck.

About healing and sensing

To know is to feel, if one is sick one can feel it, at least some are more sensitive to it. Due to other conditions I have learned to listen to my body very well, like a captain of a ship knows all the creeks of the wood. I have found that I don’t do laying in bed for days well. That is not my thing, and things that try to kick me down will have a very hard time. This surely feels heavier then your flu or cold just flying by. This is new and definitely packs a punch. In the last days I adjusted by spending more time on healing and energy handling and a lot less on other things. Yet, as I am always a positive little bit of sunshine I have been quite busy keeping an eye on others.
I am lucky that no preconditions are there to make things a lot worse. I practiced singing you know, I did grow a pretty decent lung capacity from that. And yes if I try to sing right now it definitely is cut short. Or if I move to quick or try to do to much I definitely get a kick down. I listen to such, slowing down and doing what I can with the energy I have.

Hope and wonder

The thing is that I have hope, yes this is worse then your average flu. But so far I am fighting it and though less capable still am pulling ahead. Also, if these symptoms stay this mild and finally drift away there should be a good recovery. And I wonder when the anti body kits are within actual reach.

Next Step

Daily checkup’s, I can suggest to same to all of you. Make sure others are there to check up on you. And keep an eye on how you are doing. How you are feeling. And most important make sure you know that you are not alone. There are hopefully people who can help you out in your own life.

Short Break

I know that I haven't posted in more than two weeks. But that is natural as I am busy with another huge project which requires all of my energy. It is the last weeks of said project, and it has to be done right. So, it gets all my attention and energy!
This will happen at the very end of this month so, for this month, don't expect posts anymore.

That is life.

But after that, I should get out some lovely new posts. Fresh ideas and a few things that will help you young ones out.