How I prepare articles for the blog

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 29 August 2022

Plan your target Audience

First of all your blog requires a target audience. In this blogs case the vampire community and those interested. This creates the first filter, what makes a blog post fitting your blog? And what will your audience like? KNOWING your audience helps you plan for a good fun blogging/reading experience. In my case I hang around in discords of the vampire community, as vampire myself that is very welcomed. And next to chatting and offering advice I gather topics for these blog posts. 

How I prepare articles for the blog

How do you know what to write on a blog? How do you know when article is ready? What topics make sense and how much work is it to get it ready for prime time?

For every article I post there are two that failed. Disheartening or maybe it is smart. 

I see creating articles for the blog much like planting seeds and growing plants. And then deciding what plant is the strongest and worthiest. 

And yes if a plant/article fails to reach a certain level then it is stashed away.

From seed to Plant

Everything starts with an idea, a question, a need. Much like this blog grew out of questions how to get things running or why you would run a blog. An idea is the very basics, a need! Someone talks about feeding, or shielding, or safety in a group I am part of and I got an idea for a topic. I seed it then, work out the very basics, how much I need to research, and so on. I will never post it day one! It needs time to grow. 

Harvesting on the right time

Returning to it to add to it, trim it, edit it and making sure the idea is valuable enough I create this lovely little plant. It is never perfect, but it is just right. And then it is harvesting time and with a last check it is time to post it. Making sure the spelling is right, it contains everything it needs and isn’t too long. I found that readers don’t like to read too long, not in these days. And longer blog posts need to be cut in multiple parts. Be ready to do that if needed.

Dry Times

Some times are dry. I don’t post weekly on my blog and though I always gather multiple ideas to work on some of them have failed, died. Maybe the wrong time or maybe the topic is beyond me. One has to accept their own limitations after all. And I only can do so much. There are topics that require research I don’t have access too. Yes sometimes I co-work with others to fill that hole. If the topic is important. Else I rather refer to those who are much better at it. 

Make your own blog

So you got ideas, hopes, dreams, and see needs around you. You could make a blog too. The world would say you need to update regular and provide top grade content. It needs to be one of those mom blogs that every week has wisdom and… I disagree. I rather want quality over quantity! 

Having a folder full of ideas you work on is not a bad idea at all. Some take a while, others require research and help from outsiders too. 

In our community information needs to be rehashed and retaught. The younger generation also has a point in there. Definitely since the older generation is getting really old and websites and slowly but surely disappearing.

You’ll need to find a website to host it of course. I use blogger, ran by google. It is simplistic but it works! That is about as much as there can be said. Enough options to for instance tag or set up things. Still simple enough. Another option would be a wordpress blog or even something hosted somewhere else. Niftier and a bit more options. You don’t have to spend money to get your whole own domain and website running for a blog! As long as you are willing to do the other work in it too. 

Co Authors and Proofreaders

On certain topics I lack enough insight. I got enough insight to offer advice but it helps to ask the aid of someone closer to it or better trained. 

Also a proof reader to make sure the spelling, grammar and more important obvious mistakes are written out. English is a second language for me so inevitable some mistakes will slide through. A fresh set of eyes does wonders. 

Co-authors are always a great addition, with their own insight into the matters. For instance Red Dragon who helped me with the Donor Ethics post. It can’t hurt to ask someone to help you. 

Publish

The magical time is here, you took time to do research, write, maybe get that co author and work out a very nice post. Full of useful insight and information. You got it through the proof reader so no obvious errors are left in it. And it is greenlit and posted. Hooray! Your work isn’t over yet though.

Connect with other people within the community

It is important not to stay too much in the shadow. Find ways to share it within the community. And be active, so if people have questions you can show them your blog. And connect with other active community members. We might be a community of shadows but that doesn’t means we are dead. 

So connect with others, maybe co-author posts. And in discords that allow it share your blog posts. Don’t be shy! You write for a reason, people deserve to read it! And the right audience might use it and you end up with the connections. 

Don’t give up! 

Remember to Enjoy the Process

In the end you write for an audience but also yourself. So Enjoy the process.

Ethics within the Vampire Community

Author: Masticina Akicta
Contributors: TheRedDragon1966
Date: 10 May 2022

What are Ethics

Ethics are rules to life by, rules to be a good and trust-able person. Rules that others within groups expect to go by so everybody can work together. And some are enshrined in laws to protect society.
Some are personal ethics, and the ethics of every person can differ based upon upbringing, religion, situation, and other influences. 
Ethics can be connected to life choices, like being vegan or vegetarian. Or trying to be as green as possible in the way they life. Or support certain causes or try to cause change into the world that one deems as positive. 
Every society has some form of ethics, expected behavior. Do not steal and do not kill for instance. There are laws for that, but it is also an ethical issue. Help other people when they need it, a common one, not enforced by any state law. But many will try to follow such. In short ethics are personal rules to life by, some enshrined by laws to protect society, others are personal. 

Vampirism and Ethics

Vampires have many problems, one of them is that they need to feed. Their choice of source can be quite limited indeed, sanguinary vampires will have little choice but through blood. Be it from a donor or even animal blood. Getting this is a topic that many sanguinary vampires talk about and there are guides written by them.  
Eros vampires, the succubus and incubus feed during sex. Getting consent is obviously an important part here. And they also need to find willing playmates/donors.
Psychic vampires have a bit more choice in resources and methods. But they have a bad name because untrained psychic vampires use the worst methods. You heard of them, they are either very draining personalities or caustic. They cause trouble, and things never seem to be right around them. This raises emotions and hence energy in the people around them which they feed off. They are sometimes called emotional vampires. And many guides have been written by energy workers how to deal with them.
There are many ways to feed for psychic vampires. Finding one that is both ethical and with consent is difficult, but within reach.

Choice of Feeding - Psychic vampire

As a psychic vampire I have learned a lot of things about safe feeding methods. 
So, lets start there. The most ethical way to feed is to find a donor, a willing person who can consent and you two talks through it and make sure it is done safely. 
But you can’t find a donor? You and many other vampires. So, what are your other options?
One of the most troubling methods is to cause a ruckus or trouble then feed from the energy released by others. You won’t end up with many friends that way. It is why we have such a bad name. Do you really want to be known as that troublemaker? Or person who always has a hard time/issues? 
Another method is to learn to control your tendrils which is part of your energy system. The tendrils can be directed toward the donor. See and feel the energy then nibble. This is how to connect to a donor over distance. You can also use this method while out in public place and you can gather hovering energy that is freely released.
A highly unethical method, and many vampires have done it, is by using tendrils to connect to an unknowing/unwilling person and feed from them. I shouldn’t have to point out WHY this isn’t the most ethical way. Sanguinary vampires would point out that this is like running around with lancets and attacking people. 
Instead, an ethnical solution is to feed from a public area, not targeting one or any group of humans. This requires human activity and movement rich area. Different locations have different levels of energy, a disco/bar can be delicious depending on the night, a shopping mall or busy train-station is fine. Remember: keep it ethical do not feed directly from others, but feed from the area. There is a difference here. This is where learning to filter and process energy will help too. I have survived for years on this more ethical diet. 
Nature is another option, the energy is slow, very slow, but with a bit of training and adjustment can offer some food value. Yes, you are munching trees, and no it isn’t very tasty! But if worst come to shove, aka Covid, you can survive on it for a while. Just not thrive. The early months of Covid, no travel, no nothing, all I had was nature and trees. I survived not thrived! 

Finding a Donor

The big D, donor that is! A person willing to give you blood, or energy. Better respect them for offering, and finding one is the big question.
There are a few websites that try to connect vampires and donors like The Black books: https://theblackbooks.net , and once people find out that you are a vampire some might become a donor. What can I say, vampires have that beacon thing, that won’t only attract other vampires but also donors and energy sensitives. Of course it is a bit of a freak magnet so buyers beware. Be double sure to check you you tell your true nature off.
A Donor should understand your needs, what their role is, and most important that it is done safe and with consent. In short, you talk through things, how it works, how to do it safe and tell them that they can say NO! I just saw some people from the BDSM community nod their head. Lets talk about the Donor Consent and rights.

Donor Consent and other matters

Before a donor can offer their energy and/or blood to you there are some issues. First, they need to understand what they are going to do. They need to consent and be able to consent. I am sure that some freshly awoken vampires will skirt that last part at times. Mostly as choices are little. 
What matters is that the donor knows what really is going on, that the method is safe, that you deal with the aftercare and that they can say STOP! They retain control. Yes, a vampire can be hungry but, the donor safety and health matters. 
A vampire also can decide depending on the situation if it is safe to feed. Sanguinary vampires highly probably require regular blood checks for blood born diseases. That is not a luxury! And if the vampire notices that the donor isn’t 100% stable or healthy, they should decide to post-phone the feeding. 
It sounds harsh to the vampires but treating people right opens up doors. 

A Sanguinary’s points of view

“A vampire may choose to seek out a human blood donor to alleviate symptoms and as a means of maintaining health and wellbeing. Often, a donor is chosen from within the vampire’s social circle such a family member, a spouse, lover, a friend, or an acquaintance. Exhausting these resources, the vampire may choose to advertise for a donor via a posted advertisement.
Both the vampire and donor need to be of legal age of consent, be mentally stable, fully competent, and able to understand and consent to the procedure of having blood drawn and subsequently ingested.
Please note that the legalities surrounding consent and the ingestion of human blood is complex is greatly dependent upon the country and region in which you live and well beyond the scope of this document.
The amount of blood ingested, frequency and methods utilized to extract same varies widely. Aftercare with the donor the next day to ensure they are feeling well and to check that a wound is healing properly. Discussion around how much aftercare; if any; is something that can be negotiated.
Blood screening to rule out underlying medical issues and contagious diseases should not only be expected but insisted upon by the parties involved. How often these need to be completed can be negotiated between the vampire and donor; and may be dependent upon the personal history and lifestyles. Be aware that when dealing with bodily fluids; even with the best of care, there are always risks. Do keep in confidence any personal disclosure of medical and personal information.
Abuse of any kind should never be tolerated or condoned. Including verbal abuse such as name calling, slander, ridicule, intimidation, verbal or physical threats, coercion, emotional, psychological, financial, sexual, or physical violence.
The nature of the relationship between vampire and donor is special and it cannot be understated as it is very much about consent, negotiation, and trust between the parties involved. People and situations are every evolving and thus negotiation and consent is an ongoing process. 
Remember, both vampires and donors are people. They have lives, careers, families, friends, and acquaintances and share the same emotions, feelings, and concerns as everyone else in society and deserve to be treated with dignity and respect.“
- TheRedDragon1966

Donor Bill of Rights

One of the early things that rolled out of working together between different houses were things like The Black Veil, how vampires should behave, and The Donor Bill of Rights, how donors ought to be treated and their rights. The Black Veil is a topic of its own.
Neither of these are air tight legal documents but many vampires try to stick to these. 
The Donor Bill of Rights(External): http://www.neworleansvampireassociation.org/donor-bill-of-rights.html

Conclusion

Being a vampire and having needs is one thing, however, our behaviour should not cause others any trouble. We can find donors if we have them in the area. Psychic vampires can decide how they feed and from whom. They can also seek donors or find ways that don’t directly target other people. Some even feed or munch on trees. Sangs require a more physical resource, and this can be gained through temporal alternatives or finding donors. All this is to be done smartly, with care and ethical insight. Our needs don’t stand above those who can or are willing to offer it, and we need to take care of our donors too.

Update and feeling Pekish, insight in some future posts and activity

Update and Feeling Pekish

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 4 May 2022

Update

Time for an update, I have been busy. Hunting apartments, reacting, on a few I was allowed to visit and about a month ago I finally moved. It took a while. But also a lot of energy and attention. The market here is insane! The waiting time is… ah I am sure you are not here to me vent over that. It was a hard long search. 

But in the good news, this blog is NOT dead, there are plans. As usual things just had a little enforced break. Some big plans plans are re-awoken too now things are stabilizing. Less crap around the move, more time for other stuff. 

Also upcoming post will be about Ethics, I am co-writing this with someone because ethics is not a simple issue. And to offer insight from a sanguinary insight too. It will be a good post! We are still editing it to perfection

Feeling Hungry

So on the topic, it has been a move, and I haven’t fed in a while. I feel it, my skin feels thin, I react sharper on things, I am rougher around people and a certain hunger. Even animals seem more worried around me then usual. Which is odd. Many of us vampires know what I mean. It isn’t that bad yet but I feel it. Which means I need to feed soon.

I am moved though so I need a new feeding spot, I feed ambient, non contact wise. Lacking a donor right now that is the option I have. For that I need an area where many people either move through or gather for longer times. Not sure if I like a local church for it. 

But I will find a ETHICAL spot to feed. Yeah. I will.

Now, hopefully next week Friday we have the post about Ethics. It feels good working together with others for things like that.

About vultures and psychic vampires

 About vultures and psychic vampires

Author: Masticina Akicta

Editor: Wren/Moonfeather

Date: 26 September 2021

The Balance of nature

In nature there is balance, things are born and die, and things grow and rot. In the world of energy this isn’t much different either and some of us are more suited for the “clean up” job than many trained and skilled healers. Gifted in ways some of them never have heard of.

The Vulture

The Vulture is a beautiful animal if you think about it. Sure the way that it lives and the fact that it eats carcasses can be seen as “icky”, yet it has a very important role in nature. Just like some insects and fungi clean up, so do the vultures, as they do so, they stop the spread of diseases like botulism to healthy living animals. Sounds useful right? 

Their stomach acid is so powerful that it dissolves bones and kills diseases that could otherwise kill creatures less suited to the job of cleaning up decaying bodies. 

The Role of the Psychic Vampire

Vampires exist, psychic vampires exist, and within the energy community, similar to vultures, we don’t have the best name because of the role we play.. Energy vampires are usually very capable in handling energy that makes most energy workers sick, because we are made for it. It is almost as if we have a natural knack for dealing with gunky yucky energy few can handle.   This natural resistance to harmful energies could make us rather useful long term if we were accepted more within the energy community. 

The world of energy has a flow, stagnancy is bad, and to keep things flowing something has to take and transmute the gunky stuff back into something useful. 

Tendrils that are attuned to feed can be used like sharp blades much like a scalpel in the  hands of a skilled physician operating on a wound. Notice I said the word SKILLED. Any intrusion in someone's energy can lead to long lasting damage if done incorrectly. 

Since the psychic vampire is instinctively aware of how to draw in energy, they can use their tendrils to hone in on the rot and draw it out by controlling the flow of the energy. 

More useful then you think

Let's say you got someone who has a lot of nasty, gunky energy in their system; how will you heal them? Drain out the gunk and replace it? Good idea, but  how many healers are adapted to handle the gunk naturally? How many are trained to cut through energy systems right into the source of the gunk? How many have the skills and experience to do this with only the slightest of wounds? 

How many will have to put up heavy shields or undergo rigorous grounding/cleansing to even handle such a procedure? Life isn’t always just about putting IN energy, sometimes you also have to drain the poison, cutting out the cancer with the sharpest of tools. 

You see where I am going. A healer + vampire make a great couple. The vampire targets the bad energy, easily cutting right through the energy system, to draw it out, and the healer puts in healing fresh energy and then helps seal the wounds in the energy body.

But for this pairing to work,  the healer has to trust the vampire, and of course the patient has to trust the situation as well. With so many preconceived notions and biases about vampires this isn’t  always so easy.

Additionally, as some say, aftercare matters so, someone (usually the healer side of the coin) will have to check up on the situation to see how things went and if the person is healing up well. 

Two sides of a coin

Some healers will deem vampires as utterly evil, but this is a question of ethics. Is the blade evil for being able to hurt? What defines evil are the choices the wielder of the blade makes. I am a person who believes in ethical feeding, which for me either means feeding from areas, not directly targeting people (i.e. ambient feeding); or from willing donors. Just because I am born with the tools of a hunter doesn’t mean I am automatically bad. The hunter hunts, that is its nature.

Now consider, some people have TOO MUCH energy so they need to off load it. To whom do they offload? This excess energy can be used to heal others, or even to sate the hunger of a psychic vampire.

So why can’t healers work together with vampires? Each using the inherent skills given to them to their fullest potential.  

Consider that there might even be things you learn from listening to those of us who are forced to work with and feed on energy to survive. Again, every person has to decide their own ethics on this. Just like with everyone else, no two psychic vampires are going to be exactly the same, and no two healers will be exactly the same, but by confronting our biases towards psychic vampires, the energy working community as a whole can benefit from cooperation- utilizing both sides of the coin, instead of just the side of the coin you find most appealing. Just as the vultures have their place, so too do we.

Elemental Feeding (or how to munch on trees)

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 9 September 2021

What is Feeding from Elements

Did you know that psy vampires and energy workers can feed from the earth and the trees, or thunderstorms. You might feel giddy around thunderstorms and feel energized. Nature indeed has a lot of energy to offer. And some of that energy can be fed upon. 

 For many psy vampires feeding from nature is a secondary option. Not all vampires can do this, not all psy vampires can do this and the gains are different then feeding from mainly human life energy. It simply is not the same. But it is good having an alternative ready if the worst situation hits. 

During the early phases of Covid with its long lock-downs my human energy resources were dwindling. I would travel by public transport you see, so easy energy! 

 The COVID diet was forced it upon me, meaning munching trees, and I find that it simply couldn’t fully fill the hunger and needs. You survive on it but don’t thrive on it. A glass half full isn’t the right word for it. Trees just don’t fill you up as much. A thunderstorm though can be delicious but the afterglow doesn’t lasts long. Worse when those thunderstorms go by and not over you.

The Hunger

The hunger drives us to seek sustenance, be it through blood or energy. And psy vampires have ways to get energy indirectly, from distance and certain locations. Just go to the right place at the right moment. A bar, a disco, the local super-mall or train-station. Wherever many people share a smaller area for a long time. Energy is around, this is called Ambient Feeding.

Yet in the days of COVID with restricted travel and people working in their own houses where possible such wells have dried up. And even now, in many places life hasn’t started up fully so it is so hard to connect with people. 

About Frequencies

Everything has a frequency, earth has a very slow one, trees got slow ones, thunder has quick ones. And humans have certain frequencies. I would say that vampires have a different frequency then most humans as part of their own nature. Thing is it is easier to pull down frequencies than to raise them. This makes feeding from storms much easier than feeding from trees.    You can feed from trees, but it is a slower thing as the energy moves slower. 

There are methods to use energy constructs to raise the frequency. Or one simply has to be out in nature quite a bit longer. 

Using constructs it works much like a batdetector, an adjusted radio lowers batsound down to our hearing range. 

Another much slower way it so to let the energy get to you, slowly, as nature goes. This takes a much longer time! You probably will need to learn a few new tricks in meditation among the way to get there.

Mostly an alternative

I won’t go all hippie on you, in my eyes nature feeding, the slower ways. Is mostly an alternative to our inner needs for human living energy. Prana, Chi, Ki. That is the stuff. And some things like trees, nature, are too slow to be really a permanent solution. I would more call them a backup if all other options run out. 

Potential for survival, but not thriving. The highs are simply not there. 

Yet if you have to survive you take what you get. 

How To

Many vampires will just enjoy sitting outside, or inside, watching a thunderstorm, a huge rain or other strong weather patterns. Allowing the energy to pour into them. 

But if it is a lower type of energy, like trees and earth, then it takes longer. 

Unless one uses constructs to raise the frequencies. Think bat detector but then the other way around. One has to be out there in nature for a long time, mentally connect with it and let it give you some energy slowly. 

Note: Do not overfeed of specific trees or an area. Nature needs the energy itself to survive. An overfed tree might get sick and die. 

Questions

• How did you deal with Covid and the lock downs so far?
• Did you find any alternative source of energy to work out for you?
• Did your need for coffee rise up hugely too?

Simplified Ambient Feeding

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 6 September 2021

Who Am I

I am Masticina Akicta, I woke up to my psy vampirism more then 20 years ago. In that time I had a lot of energy experiences and learned a lot. And got quite some insights into energy. In time reading and energy manipulating became a second nature. Much of what I learned what by experience. 

Now the question, why does this matter? It became obvious that maybe I think too easy about things at time. After all, when I was just 2 years in my awakening I had trouble with shielding, feeding, filtering and so on too. I have through time reached advanced skills levels. But this is for the vampires who just woke up. So, lets simplify things a bit. 

Simple Ways to Feed

We all swim in energy, so the easiest is to go somewhere there is much energy and just soak it in. This will give you good energy and bad energy. And let me tell you that there is a difference in energy. The energy you feed on matters. In quality and effects it can and will have on you. I used to feed in rather dirty but high energy areas. Meaning the energy could and would affect me. 

A lot of young psy vampires know to get energy one is just having to find a fight or maybe causing it. Fights or irritations lead to release of energy and easy food. Or to draw attention from others on other ways. But many of these have a negative name to it. The reason why psy vampires get a bad name. 

Locations

If one has a busy party scene in town. Or a shopping mall, maybe a sport place where big plays happen. You don’t even have to like the music, or shopping, or sport. But the energy there is high chance on much free energy out there in the ambiance. 

I used to feed a lot at a dance hall where they had different kinds of feasts. Yummy delicious energy and so much of it you could cycle it. 

Changing where I lived and getting older led me too feed in public areas like train stations. A lot of people rushing in and out, not as yummy but functional. 

Simple Ways of Improve Energy Quality

Energy in public places can be quite dirty. REALLY dirty, or contain things that will affect you badly. You are what you eat! So early on it helps to use some basic tools to improve the energy quality. Even the most basic filter-shield can help take out much of the gunk. Gunk, my word for the yucky energy you don’t want to feed off. As on learned to filter and process things become quite clear, that the syrope like stuff isn’t good food. 

Energy Constructs

First all all, an Energy Construct is something you create to do something for you. Like a shield to keep bad stuff out! Or an energy transmutation machine. To create a construct visualize and will your energy to do something. At first it will be hard, but like muscles energy manipulation will become easier and at a point you’ll be able to use perma shields and highly advanced transmutation systems. 

Transmutation

Transmutation is changing energy A into B. It is treating energy to change it, or do something with it. A basic filter shield won’t require knowledge about this though. But more advanced methods will use transmutation.

Cycling

Cycling is when you open up your energy system and let the energy pour through you. No filtering, no cleansing, no transmutation, nothing. You and the energy are one. This can be done at big dance parties, rock or metal concerts and so on. It also means you’ll draw into yourself a lot of “crud” and other stuff that WILL affect you. If people use drug at the party, expect to be affected by such too, to a lesser degree. 

It is easy and cheap and if it is safe enough you can quickly refill your needs. At the price of feeling groggy the day after. 

Filtershielding/Filterbox Shielding

A basic shield can be used to force the energy through to block most of the bad energy out. What it bad? That is up to you! Emotions technically can be seen as bad energy. Emotions do add taste to energy and many vampires start out as Negative Energy Feeders. Aka, able to feed upon bad stuff. Some energy is obviously bad and would take work to transmute and turn into useful, and transmutation requires energy! So filtering that out means less work is needed. 

Visualize a box in what energy goes in one way, is pushed through and gets out without said bad things. Filter shielding might require a number of filters on a row, much like how in nature water is filtered and cleaned. 

In nature water goes down into the earth, through a few layers of ground and sand with pebbles and finally pours out much cleaner. 

Think of your box the same, energy goes in top, then goes through a number of filter layers, ending out much cleaner. It might come out like a clear enough quick running syrope. 

Yet just as nature this takes time. So you are probably stuck in the same location for a while as you do this. Train Travel, or bus travel if that is common in your area means you are stuck in an area and got the time. So using slower methods to feed make sense. 

Make sure energy is captured in something, like a cup made of energy, so you can sip from it. And take it slow and enjoy the ride. 

Time and Experience

As you get experience and your gifts awake some things seem ever so easy or obvious. But this depends on the person, there is innate needs and ways to deal with it. And yes it helps to learn things guided. 

In the beginning life is pretty darn harsh though for a psy vampire or a hybrid. Not to mention sanguinary vampires. But those have other teachers. 

My suggestion is to learn basic shielding techniques and use that as crude and basic filters. That way you can decide what energy you feed on and what you won’t. Keep a dairy, find good feeding grounds, and learn to keep track of your own energy levels. So that you feed on time! A dairy is bound to help with that. If required create your own little secret language of signs that you can put aside normal dairy entrances. 

The Fuel-tank

So how do you know how much energy you have? That takes experience. See it as a fuel tank on a car, it only lasts so long. So you need to check its level every once in a while at least. And, if you have a very busy time you might have burned up more energy. 

Learning your energy body will mean you can see ahead when you need to have fed. And keep healthy and sane. 

Personally I can do a pressure test, much like a blood pressure test. I try to compress my energy system, a within a certain range, and I measure its reaction. If it goes very easy it probably means I am running low. If it shows much tension then a lot of energy pours through my internal system and systems should be fine. Another way is to learn to recognize your hunger… 

Basic Beacons

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 24-06-2021

What are Beacons

A beacon is a strong energy signature. It forms from inside of you and begins to shine out like a lighthouse. It is like a finger print of your deeper energy systems that shines through the outer layers. And it can be used to find others within your own frequency. Usually people talk about this within the vampire community. But other people have it too. 

More then just Vampires

Usually the vampires talk about the beacon as if it is their own. But that isn’t true, within the VC we simply talk about the beacon as how we can recognize each other and why certain things happen. Like how people react to us or how donors find us.

Witches also seem to have a knack of finding each other. And people gifted with energy too, and dragons, therians, otherkin, it is like an invisible scent that makes two people meet up and send out information to each other. 

Among a world of people who hardly pick up any hints knowing someone is different or part of a certain group you share is very useful. 

From Awakening to Lighthouse

A beacon begins like a little seed, it is what you always where but waiting for you to grow and become. 

In some families things like vampirism, witchcraft, or even otherkin is strong. And a child might be born with a gift. For a while though the child probably shows no sign. Sometimes early on a kid begins to show signs of their energy gifts. And those who know might be able to guide them. Or sometimes fate has it that a child takes longer to fully understand their nature and wakes up. Not all are as lucky.

But once one truly wakes up and learns the depths of their gifts the energy shines like a lighthouse. Calling out to others, to make connections! 

Kin seeks Kinship

Your awoken energy will begin to attract others. Be it others equal to you, or close to you. For instance I might be a vampire and a rabbit-therian, something I can’t deny, that doesn’t means I only attract those. Witches for some odd reason find their way to me too.

No reason to complain, I offer advice and I can learn from their ways. 

Also many vampires will note that people at attracted to them. Maybe not sexually but for some reason want to hang around. While many dragons denote that people are quicker to fear them. They might not be able to tell WHY but they will be effected by it! 

Tag-Your-It

In a way the beacon is like the tag on a new fridge you plan to buy. With information about the efficiency, energy use, size and storage etc. 

The Beacon is an invisible energy based tagging system that helps one find one like one self or find someone for another reason. 

Through shielding we might be temporarily adjust how the energy world sees us. But in the end our identity is written on us. 

Which leads in our lives to many interesting experiences and meetings. 

Ambient Feeding 1

Ambient Feeding 

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 21 June 2021

Different Types of Psychic Feeding

Lets work out the basics, Psychic vampires need to feed. There are different ways to feed, from donors to surroundings and many different sources. Yet, human life energy is what most if not all psychic vampires know the best. It is just on that right frequency.

Human life energy can be found in many places, donors and of of course areas a lot of humans frequent or get stuck in. 

In the most basic terms there are a few main ways to feed psychically

1. Touch, touching the donor.
2. Distance Feeding, connecting with a donor through tendrils.
3. Astrally, connecting with someone through their energy signature.
4. Sexually, hello Succubus. A very interactive form of touch feeding.
5. Ambient, hovering in the left over energy from an area.

Ambient feeding can be used to draw from nature, storms and other things. Ambient is the most distant, though astral feeding can be seen as distant too. Ambient is the world of energy around you. 

What is Ambient Feeding

You probably the term Ambient Feeding or Filter Feeding. It means taking energy from around you into yourself. Everything that lives has energy, Chi, Ki, Prana, whatever its name. And like energy fields it can leave out into the world as they pass. 

Direct feeding by touch or distance by tendrils does connects you with a source for a much easier and cleaner way to feed. 

But not all have donors or don’t always have access to their donors. During Covid many of use learned that all to well! 

So Ambient Feeding is taking up the energy that is left by others, energy is all around us, people leave it as they move through areas or amass in churches, rock concerts, train stations and so on. The quality of the energy depends on the area, a disco tends to have, depending on the crowd, very happy hyped energy! While some parties will have a lot of people using drugs and that will influence the energy too. 

The worst places to feed probably would be the DMV. 

The thing is with a donor you have much more control what kind of energy you get. With ambient though you hover in a lot of stuff you won’t like. And though vampires can handle some bad energy it takes time to burn through and treat. 

Every location has different levels of energy, I remember that before Covid the train station had energy enough to top up 3 vampires. During C, I got quite hungry, Even at the points I could travel, human movement was so little, there just was no food. It slowly is returning to semi normal again. Yum, food! 

How to Ambient Feed

Though to many it comes naturally once the basics are understood there are a few different ways one can feed. One can open their energy system and just like a black hole draw energy in. Or one could draw the energy to them through tendril's and later advanced energy systems. 

 Simply begins means going out to places with a lot of energy, public transport hallways, disco’s, rock concerts and so on. Then just drawing the energy close to you and let your body feed. Trusting my vampiric nature to deal with the after effects. Which wasn’t always too nice. Again the energy isn’t very clean. 

Unfiltered feeding has side effects! You also feed on the emotions of people and just ask the average empath how “fun” that can be. I remember feeding at my local disco, venting wide open and feeling all that emotions and energy pour through me. Almost like a drug high. I loved it! 

Young vampires ought to first get a handle on basic feeding methods, the experiences they get from such and learn the ways of energy. Your vampiric energy body can handle quite a bit, but don’t be too crazy. Using shields as filters will help a lot with getter a handle on a healthy way to feed. 

Shielding and Filtering

One of the first steps going from unprotected feeding to protected is by using shielding. You will the energy to do something. In this specific case to envelop you and only allow certain energies through. Shielding itself is quite the topic, how to do it and how to make it efficient. There are many layers to it, I know bad joke! 

But think of it in the most basic terms as standing in a see through ball. And you can adjust just what can pass and what can’t pass. Apply your understanding what you want to feed off and what not and adjust the shield to such. Then draw the energy into you. What happens is that the shield will bounce off the energy you don’t desire.

To theoretical? Lets say that someone in your house is fighting. You don’t choose your own family after all! What if you could use a shield to stop the negative emotions and pain from coming into your energy zone? What if you could will the bad energy to stay out of your room? Empath’s approve of that! Now apply that filter instead into use of feeding. 

Theory into Practice

So you are in an American shopping mall, great area to feed in most situations. A lot of people passing through, leaving their energy behind. A lot of slowness too as many hang around for quite a while with all the little shops and things there are too do. There is a lot of energy. Free unclaimed energy. For me this would be the train station, I don’t mind hanging around there for 25 minutes in a busy station. 

In short FREE energy. Thrown away, nobody has a claim on it anymore, just waiting to slowly be absorbed by earth. In short, dinner!

So there you are, just visiting, hanging out on a seat watching the people pass as you draw that energy to you. Now I hope that you are willing to put up some filtering as the energy is dirty, very dirty. But you draw that energy too you and let your nature do the rest, drawing that energy into you. Your tendrils, extensions of your energy body, can be used to guide the drawing of energy. You can use tendrils to feel the energy of the area and guide it down to you. Take your time, feed as slow or quick as make sense and enjoy the view. You might notice that your energy sensitivity goes pretty wild as you now connect with the ambient energy around you. You might see energy where most people see dullness. 

Again take it slowly and just feed, relax, trust your vampirism to be smart enough but keep an eye out. Dirty energy means it will have to burn it off. For instance burn off emotions, you might feel hyper after a good fed for a short while. 

Now after feeding take good care of yourself good. Burn off what is too much or has to get out and give yourself at least one day to heal up. 

Word Meanings

Tendrils; part of the vampires energy system, they can be moved around at the will of the vampire. Energy Sensitives might see them as “weird hairs” on the aura at rest. They can elongate and reach many places and far. Are sensitive and give you insight into the energy of the area. 

Astral; A realm of energy where time and space work very different and things can connect. 

Energy Signature; Everything alive has an energy signature. It is like your passport in many ways. The key to find you and connect to you.

Shield; much as expected a wall between you and something else. In the feeding case one that lets certain things through and keeps other things out.

Empath; Someone who feels the feelings of the others too. Meaning they are never to sure if what they feel is theirs or someone else feelings! 

Walking on a Knives Edge

Author: Masticina Akicta 

Date: 14-05-2021

Walking on a Knifes Edge

This is written more then a year into the Covid situation. Covid has changed a lot, many places one could go before to find a lot of energy freely laying around are closed. Even lesser options are much harder these days. The once in a while travel by train isn’t doing to push me above surviving to midrange levels. And with that I am luckier then many others.

Nature can feed, yes but never seems to come up to the level human energy gets me.

I am lucky that train travel still is allowed in my country and train stations are usually capable to retain some energy. In Europe we use trains more. In some countries it is very common for people to use the train to go to their jobs, of school, or university. The thing is with schools shutting down, jobs limiting the amount of people that can show up and universities only opening up a little. The good times are over! Sure they are slowly opening but the big herds of people walking through train stations doesn’t happens as much as before.

As a psy-vampire I can go to a train station, draw energy through a filtering and cleaning system and get out life energy. Some call it bottom-feeding, but I am quite pride on the ways I have worked to long term be able to feed without needing direct donors. And with adjustments living like that is doable. I rather go to a club or a big event but hey gotta take what is given right? 

And then Covid came, no more clubs, no more big places where a lot of people get together and even though travel has opened up again and I can feed once in a while. Even train stations are not in the level to really feed m e up to the point I could easily before Covid. 

Some weeks I am on a knives edge, that hunger always in my mind. And making my tongue a bit sharper then I hope to have. I really don’t like to piss off other people. Not more then they deserve! 

Surviving not Thriving

I know my situation is better then some other vampires, after all blood and donors are much harder to find and get too. Many of us are stuck surviving, not thriving, some of us deep bouncing against the lowest levels we have been in a while. And yes even I with all the methods I have can’t find enough resources. Or at least not to the level that makes me thrive. 

Edging on that ever hunger, seeing the tank getting emptier and knowing that you are easier to topple or end up making rough mistakes. A thin skin, emotional less stable and sharper of tongue. It is surviving, not thriving. Also less fed our energy shifts and some people being to notice. Luckily I have a few tricks but yeah I wish I had fed better and hence more stable energy to do more stuff. 

Solutions

I think many of us know solutions that work for us. Sang’s have sources of blood, not the best choice and harder to get but there are certain 3rd options. A donor still is the best and getting that donor to you or being able to travel to them is going to be the only long term solution.

For psy-vampires having more then just human energy as sources is one way. Yes, munching trees, I know it isn’t what you want. But you survive… just not thrive. 

And me? The few train trips I still can take are my source for the human one… the rest is the vegan diet. 

Future

The future seems simple, vaccinations and getting the Covid virus down. That opens up access to things again, travel and that also means food for psy-vampires and donors for everybody.

I get it, vaccinations, ergh. But it seems the science behind it is solid enough and in areas that vaccinate a lot the spread is a lot slower. Nothing is 100% in life as they say. But one thing is sure, we have some weapons against this virus. And we have potential to open up certain things again for our needs.

Safely Releasing Tension

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 25 March 2021

Emotional and Energy Overloads

We life in a world in what we are expected to behave certain ways, act certain ways and follow certain rules. We are told to behave, expected to behave and “othered” when we don’t. How many haven’t been pushed out of accepted society because they were too different?  

Yet we are human, and nobody is perfect. Energy and emotions build up, many of us can’t easily find others to talk to about emotional issues or other issues. Our society expects us to be strong and able to walk on our own. And it is the question if you got a partner if they are going to take the role of listening ear. 

This leads to heavy builds up in the end which can lead to some really explosive behaviors. Which lead to even more eyes looking at us and fingers pointing at us. 

The question is how to release that all safely. Because if you can’t release the energy somewhere it can easily lead to blockages and rising tension. Which breaks! Usually violent.

 Lets talk about Volcanos! You’ll understand why I go into this soon enough.

Vulcanos

I am not sure if you were the kid in school that loved learning, or you were bored and do other things but Vulcanos are points in the earth where magma from below cause a lot of tension. At times it breaks through the thin skin the earth has and causes a releases. Much like a pimple, vulcanos always have been around ever since this little ball of matter formed and clumped together. 

There is always tension in earth as long as there is heat in the core and with moving tracts of landplates vulcanos will always show up.

My question to you; what kind of vulcano are you? One that builds up till it explodes violently or one that has pressure releases?

Humans also can store a lot of tension much like a battery. They go through their days, shit happens, they worry about things. They are not sure how they can talk to and then just as the pressure is very high…something bad happens and BOOM you explode. It usually isn’t even the fault of the last person to talk to you but… it just happened. It was the last bit of pressure needed to make it happen.

This happens to everybody! Babies can cry if they need something or are unhappy, and once grown up you have to release the tension better and explain your disagreements in a more fitting matter. Being a grown up sucks right. Being responsible for your actions doesn’t always mean your emotions agree with the rest of the expectations.

A healthy mental way to deal with such is to release some of such tension on way or another in something. Usually suggested is someone to talk to, who is willing to listen without judging. Or find something like sport to pour that energy out into.

Vesuvius versus Hawaii

I talk about two different main vulcanos here. Vesuvius is the vulcano that builds up, and up, to explode quickly and sharply with a lot of force. It can be silent for a long while and hence dangerous. You could trust that all is fine, but underwhile the last bit of pressure is building up till the big boom. Even you can’t say when it breaks. Just that it is close to exploding.

The second type of volcano is the the ones you see on Hawai. They are always going off and release a steady flow of lava out. But this also means that they are known, well monitored and due to the release of tension huge eruptions don’t happen as much. 

The danger you don’t see is the most dangerous after all. 

There are also super volcanoes but that is a whole different ball game. The type you get when a marriage with a terrible choice of mate finally breaks and all the negative feelings in one flow break out. Ouch! 

Causes

Of course one way to deal with problems is to deal with the cause. Sometimes we can’t really or require help from others too. Sometimes it means stopping meeting certain people or finding other work, if possible. Sometimes it means dealing with a nasty past that still shadows you. 

And sometimes it is just a lot of factors that on itself wouldn’t cause trouble too much ending up on the same few days. We can’t always clear up with a cause, but if we try to fix a few of those underway things improve a lot. And I don’t say it is easy because some times there are huge issues that take years to heal. Release of the energy is the first part though. Draining out the energy to allow healing.

On a more average level new work, issues at work, money issues, kids sick etc can lead to a lot of pressure building up. Little things that all together are too much. 

Safe and Healthy ways to get rid of energy

Much energy can be rid off through guided release of it through actions, like running, boxing and other activities. Some of us make paintings filled with our emotions or write words. Emotions are like pressure in this situation they have to go somewhere. When musicians go through bad times they make sad songs. When they explode their songs are raw like mothers little explosions.

Metal is a healthy form of music, it is full of emotion and sometimes positive too. But usually very raw and strong. It is one of those places where you can yell and bang your head and feel so good after such. A metalsingers scream is very close to a baby using its one and only method to be noticed. 

Of course, there are always the people who are there to listen to you and who are trained guide you through releasing such and thinking about things. Trained to listen and put 1+1 they can guide you into dealing with the underlying issues. But many things are just normal daily rising tensions and issues. Which can’t be talked away. But have to be taken out another way.

It is healthy to keep draining rising pressures one way or another. And taking care of yourself also means taking time to mentally release energy. So it won’t explode in the worst of moments. Think after a busy week do a sport activity that you can push most of that energy into. You’ll feel much better and the energy has been used well. 

Personally I am well self-trained with grounding so I can ground myself, areas, or others. 

And I can see how rebirthing retreats and other strange sounding things make sense for the Japanese society. A very closed off and expecting society in what one has to be subservant to the system. Having an own Identity is bad there. Ah, so much rising tension. Hence the drinking! 

I am sure you have some ideas how to deal with tension, pressure and sometimes deep laying pains. What matters is making sure it doesn’t crawls upon you and you explode. Healthy regular tension release is good for everybody.

Questions

What kind of Vulcano are you?

What do you do to release pressure?

When did you have the last big explosion?

Is how you deal with things different these days then your childhood?

What suggestions do you have for others?

Shielding, Grounding, and Meditation

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date:8 March 2021

Why learn these basics? 

Shielding, grounding, and meditation can aid everybody. Definitely those who are energy sensitive or work with magic and energy. 

If you got an inkling of gifts learning these basic tools will offer you a strong footing and feeling of security. They will get you out of trouble in many cases, or at least teach you how to withstand the storms. 

The world is one of energy, it is swirling all around, and we are bombarded with it. Many of use are seemingly insensitive to it, though not truly. But those who have woken up will strongly be affected by it. And hence have to learn how to deal with it.

Like a Muscle

Energy works like these are like muscles, at first you be very bad with it or have a very short duration that you can keep it up. Like muscles the more you do it the better you get at it. So at first you might only be able to shield simple things very shortly. Do it enough though and you get better at it and can keep it up longer. Many years later it becoming second nature. To the point that one can do it without trying.

Visualization

Visualization is the key in energy works. You will it to happen, you see it happen, so it happens. With shielding you see the energy reach the barrier point and bounce off. You will it to be and so it be done. 

Grounding

In grounding one connects with earth and nature, much like a tree has deep roots. Through such one can release energy into the earth. And earth can handle a lot of energy, much more then we can. This lowers one own energy down and releasing tension and overcharge. 

It is drawing a wire from the earth and connecting either you or an area to it, much like a tree root connects things. Like the trees can withstand the storms and can take the large amount of rain it allows you to withstand the storm and find your own peace again. Trees survive storms, and so can you.

Many people in tune with nature don’t wear shoes as much as many for a good reason. Contact with fresh earth offers a great contact for grounding. Though yes shoes do have a great function and in some areas I would definitely suggest to wear shoes. I tell you Lego Pieces are not fun to walk into. Also snow, brrrr!

Practice

Sit somewhere and visualize that from the earth a tree root grows to you. Then let the tree root take the energy you don’t want. 

Visualize that tree roots grow around a room that is high in energy and again let those take the high levels of energy you don’t want to deal with.

Warning

Grounding is great and useful. But as with all that is natural there is doing things too much. Balance is the key. If you force too much energy out of an area it becomes very slow. Too much earth energy can be quite odd.

Shielding

The storm is out there, better to hide inside, a cozy hut seems in reach. A wall between you and the blasting wind and rain. That is shielding. It is putting a wall between you and something else, blocking it from reaching you. For instance, there is a fight in the air, like a pregnant sky waiting to break out. And you can’t really leave the house since it is your family and all. So… you go into your own little safe hut waiting for the storm to break out. A nice little cozy spot with strong walls that will survive the harsh wind and rain. 

But it isn’t always negative situations like that, for energy sensitives going to huge public places can be “interesting.” Your extra senses might just be overcharged by so much they pick up. Shielding will allow you to pass through the market place in a much saner way.

A combination of shielding and grounding will make it much harder to push you off your seat.

Practice

Visualize a see through bubble, then visualize it bigger and around you. Once such is done will it to block certain things, like the energy of a specific person or of an area. Be specific, try to play with what you can block and how much work and energy it takes.

Practice with getting the walls of the shield closer to you until it is a much closer fit to you. 

Meditation

Meditation, ah, how lately we been hearing a lot about that right. You probably think about monks sitting hours in seemingly trance or chanting to gongs. That is one way to meditate.

But there are many ways to meditate. The main thing is that meditation allows you to release all the troubles of the days at a momentand with that much less build up exists. If you don’t crop up things you are less affected by it. And make better choices. 

And yes, the “clear your mind” is kinda bullshit and yet true. You can’t force your mind to go silent. No! The trick is to give your mind space to do what it needs to do to release its thoughts and energies in a guided way. 

Our busy western world brains are filled to the brim with thoughts, much like a highway filled with cars. Obviously there will be some honking! 

You are allowed to have those stray thoughts float around, fight it as you wish, try to push it back. That doesn’t works. No, let it float it and then send if off on its own cloud free to go where it wants. At a point you got rid of those most those thoughts and your head ought to clear itself. In our busy lives a lot builds up, so don’t expect that traffic jam of thoughts to be out of your head in 1 hour ;)

Practice

Sit somewhere and allow your brains to go free, ideas will float up, don’t fight it and try to push it back. Let them be for a while then send them off in the clouds. The freed space you made will inevitable be taken by another thought so the first few times you are bound to get little actual rest. But slowly and surely you clear that highway in your head and finds moments of rest. As long as you do it regular. 

You also can get this from doing something active, like cycling or running, your body is busy but your mind now has space to do the same as above. Just be sure you are safe of course. 

And you might also want to look into journaling to the the most powerful thoughts out of your head. Those tend to stick around.

Journaling

It is important also to keep a journal. Foresight depends on being able to look into the past and make smart choices based upon those memories. A journal in what you write how you feel, what went on and if things went well or not will give you insight in how to handle events further ahead. 

A smart person remembers the past. A journal, a pen and daily writing what happened can do wonders. Journals also can be used for less then daily tasks, for instance a magical journal for magical workings or a journal for a specific use. 

But daily journaling is a great way to get stuff out of your mind on paper. And later you can look back and notice patterns.

Patterns, ah yes, you might not know it yet but what if, just hear me out, what if you have bad days or weeks around certain times. But you can’t put your finger on it, seeing that pattern might lead you to dive into your journal to see what could be the main influence. 

What if you get bad days always following meeting certain people? Or dealing with certain issues? Knowing the pattern means you can make a change

Practice

Start a journal, write daily, even if it seems boring. What happened that day, how did you feel. Opinions and so on. Treat the Journal as person you can talk too. Only once you have enough material you can really look back and see the patterns.

Seeing the Patterns

As pointed above it is hard to see the forest for the trees, it is once you got a lot of trees you know about the forest. Months and  years of journals will become the forest out of the trees. You’ll be able to fly above the forest like a hawk, learning more about yourself, your desires and behaviors and indeed dangers. 

December 2020 Update

Author: Masticina Akicta 

Date: 28 December 2020

Looking Back

Happy Holidays? Eh! And let's end this year! I didn't have many postings this year. What can I say, Covid, busy with other projects. Stuff happens! 

But I had a few nice posts. 

• February 23 I had a post about the different roles within the vampire community. The role we tend to float into, not rigid, but take parts off. 
• March 29 I had a post about Covid and Ethical Feeding for Psy Vampires. Aka how to feed safe during this horrible situation. 
• April 19 I talked about Covid and the vampire Community.
• June 23 I wrote about how Summer was in the Town. Ah yes vampires as the sun, aren't we happy about that! 
• July 31 I wrote about Vampires, Donors and Covid. Yes covid again. Isn't it lovely how shot this year was! 
• August 28 I looked back on a peaceful summer
• August 28 I also wrote about Vampire Awakenings, an useful topic
• September 22 it was all about finding your Tribe. An useful thing to know within such a big community.
• October 2nd it was about the Age of Fear! How covid was putting us against each other even worse then the years before! 
• October 18 there was a post about the Nightside Identity, an useful thing to have for most of us!
• November 9th, Elections and Energy. Or in short how the energy around that time was INSANE! As if Eris was having a tea party!
• Ending the year with November 17 talking about how Boxes are for Cats. In short, how labels are useful but we should not try to fit in a box that wasn't made for us. 

Feelings about this month

December is not a great month for me. Due to personal life and some long standing memories. I always take a nice break in December. I don't like how this month easily falls apart and nothing makes sense anymore. Not to mention the last two weeks are lost and one has to deal with suddenly extra "free" days. Free isn't the right word as society has expectations of such days. 

Also the amount of food one has to get in the house, the preparations. I am not a fan of doing a lot of work for a holiday. Like this Holidays should be about relaxation; not about having to run like an idiot to get things done in time, make sure you got enough food in house for the days you can't shop, being sure you are on time with all the long term issues and so on. Also this year was even more fun due to Covid limitations. In short my mood was shot! Blog posts written on a bad mood are not that good.

Things in the Short Que

There are a few upcoming topics I want to post about. Can't make promises but a few should be worth it.

For instance I am still working on a post about awakening the sense as an addition to the sixth senses article. 

There is an article about Prana/Chi/Life Energy. Which needs some more research! I don't like to make things to deep but this needs a few hooks. 

I have an article in the short que about Vampirism and Paganism. Aka, vampires and the witchcraft/energy/pagan community. I am sure we all see how that goes at times. 

I am also looking at a nice basic book list. So new vampires, and awoken ones, can get  a short list what books they probably want to read. 

There is a nice one, feeding from nature, aka munch on trees. Or also known as the Covid Diet! 

And a few more which I need to see if I want to keep. It is always good to have a few articles around that might be published on this blog, or work on ideas flowing from them instead. 

In short I have some topics for blog ahead of me. Just need the energy and mental space to get it done. Also some require research! And I am terrible with research!

Ideas Floating around

I have a few ideas floating around. Which if I can get things to work might get running. Like a Podcast, but that would be a lot of work, a lot of preparation, a lot of finding out just what makes sense to do. And of course who I can invite over as guest. The technical Issues alone will be a lot. And coming year I have a few things to get running in my personal life too. So yeah, at least I can lay the ground work right?

2021 Ahoy

I hope that 2021 quickly brings an end to Covid and that soon enough our world is sane again and functional. That we all can have an as normal life again as possible. 

Still I hope that the lessons of 2020 remain in the back, we did learn to do things different. And some ideas might not be that bad. I didn't mind having to do certain things from home. And just as in War, technology tends to change quickly when shit hits the fan. 2020 was one of those years! And we grew quickly. I got in contact with quite a few people online which else I would never have. Count your blessings! 

So on 2021! May it bring good to many! 

Boxes are for Cats

 

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 17 November 2020

Boxes are for Cats

Isn't it cute? Getting out a fresh box and the cat will play in it or even sleep in it. Well, that is great for cats but it isn't for us. As cozy as that box might look. 

Putting yourself in a box is giving yourself an identity and limiting yourself based upon such identity. Accepting the walls around you as limitations isn't always the best way. Painting yourself in a corner is neither, that would be the far reaching effect of boxing yourself in. I wonder how schrodingers cat is doing. Ah! Back to the blog-post.

The thing is that just accepting and using a label doesn't means having to use all the trappings of a label. And that there are nuances, differences, and connections you as person can deal with that fall outside said label. 

The Power of Labels

Humans love to label things, tree, air, leaf, dog, cat, box. A label allows our brains to connect things together and give it values. To understand the world better. From young on we are taught how useful labels are. "The Red Ball." We have a ball and it is red! Language and Communication requires labels and identities. 

What does this mean for our community? Within the vampire community we use a certain set of labels to define ourself and to show others in the know what they can expect from us. It is a not so secret handshake, or if using certain words, a secret handshake that allow us to recognize others and understand where they come from.

Sanguinary vampires feed on blood. Psi vampires on life energy, hybrids have a preference for both. Med Sangs try to find out just what in blood makes it work. And Sexual Vampires feed through sexual acts.

Vampire itself means, at least in our inner culture, something different then the books and movies. But it is a term that makes us easier to find. A key that once people have entered the door they can learn more about our community and members. And our plight. 

Labels in short allow us to use words and within the community agreed upon meanings allow us to work together. And of course the expected meaning from outside the community.

Yet using those doesn't mean that all of us don't have individual differences. 

Each of us is different in the end and with different life experiences leading us into the place we ended up. The Label allows us to quicker get another to understand things, but the truth usually is more subtle and it is understood that as individuals we all have our own experience within said label. In short, we don't fill the box equally! Boxes can differ, even if all are labeled Banana. How we deal with things and just what it means to us can differ, even within the same label. But on average we can agree that some labels have an use to pull us together.

The Power of Community

Communities drive us to work together, learn, study, support and teach others. For that we have learned to use certain language, labels. And yes with that from the outside it seems as if certain archetypes show up. The Labels, boxes, help us quicker to get insight. But the true insight always takes more time. 

Again, even if we use equal words and agree upon meaning. Just how we are affected by it and how we handle it differs.

The labels help community lead you to where you need to start. But in the end the search will require much inner research.

Finding your Own Identity

What matters is finding ones own Identity. And with that your strengths, weaknesses and of course your requirements to survive. Each of us is different after all but we share in the core many things. And talking to other can make you think, lead you to where you need to seek. Yet equally one is free to research many options. 

That takes time, and with that comes trappings and labels, finding out just what it all means. A Sang who feeds on blood will obviously require methods to feed safely and donors. Also deal with donor and blood safety. So the label sang should at least tell those in the know what you have to deal with. And lead you quickly to resources you need. 

How easy or bad it gets depends on the situation you as individual are in. And every individual is made up of multiple labels if you think about it. Again society loves to label things! 

Everybody is Different

As Brian once said, "You are all individuals." 

Everybody is different and yet we have many things in common. And we can find ourselves in those common realities. Just remember, the experience of one person doesn't has to be yours. Meaning that ones person easy way to get food might not work too well for someone else who doesn't has access to donors. Or the experience of a Psy vampire can and usually will be quite different from a sang vampire. Even among psy vampires the different methods and situations we are in make the insight we require different.

So keep your eyes and ears open and accept that everybody is on another path. Yet, through our common problems we can help each other out with advice and teachings. 

So when a new member shows up within the community the labels lead them to the place that they might find help. Yet in time they also should understand that they are more then just that label. And that everybody has their own issues and things to deal with. 

Strength through Diversity

Which leads me to this part, strength through Diversity! Differences lead to different ways of thinking, different strengths and weaknesses and yes also different needs. Meaning different solutions to fix problems and through working together and sharing insight the community reaches a better way to guide those who are new. 

This is for good and bad, disagreements are normal. But in the end we need to work together as a small community!

Teachers are Guides and so are You.

Other vampires can hand you information, show you the way to find information. Talk with you about the veracity of information you found and even safely teach you many useful skills. 

But you should be in command as student. And understand that every teacher is also a student in a long path through life. There are many new method and things you might be able to share with the community. 

I leave you with these words, remember your own identity and don't let others rewrite it. Instead grow into your true self and learn many new things. 

About Elections and Energy

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 9 November 2020

About Elections and Energy

Elections are a part many of societies. At least in many societies that claim to have freedom. Lets be fair there are elections in China but with only one party it is a bit of a sham isn't it! 

This post is about how Election Time can lead to very strange energies. Very opposite, you versus them. Pitting people against each other and leading to huge ruptures in society and throughout such the world of energy we create. Energy that can be felt far away.

Psychic Radio

Those who are psychically sensitive, like psychic vampires, do receive energy like a radio. The energy is out there like the radio signals, but not everybody can pick them up and understand them. Witches, Psychics, and Psychic Vampires by their nature become much more capable of picking up that energy. To the point that it can get too much for us.

And this years election in America was a hell. It felt as if the earth was screaming. And as if everything was aflame. Think a million voices screaming at the same time bad.

Empathic Wavelengths

Feelings can ripple through the system too. Many times I had to ask myself are these my own thoughts and feelings or someone else. One has to be sure to protect themselves against those effects.

How stronger the emotions how harder it is to stay neutral yourself. And trying to ground and shield all that away isn't unloving, but one has to defend oneself too. That means at times taking oneself out of the situation. 

This election I felt and tasted a lot of fear and anger. The society was lashing out, fearful, ripping and biting. Not strange that things happened. The level of inner pain was beyond anything I have dealt with before. And trying to not be taken by it was hard. For my own mental health I definitely took a few days off. 

The Storm Front

Yes, that title, I know. As the year rose, Covid perked up and forced huge changes upon society. And cause huge damage a rising cloud of pain, anger, distrust rose up and turned into one of the worst looking storm clouds I ever felt. To say that it was oppressive would be a nice way of saying it. 

Around Saturday after the voting the chance of rain was rising quickly. And on Sunday it all broke out raining away so many things. By now the energy feels cleared again, cleaner... there are still fires here and there burning. Pain that will take long to go away. But it feels like after a big rain cloud. And energy is not oppressive anymore but rising. 

Financial Potential

I live in Europe. So down to the point, I have no vote in the American election. I can at most like or dislike a potential candidate. And American politics always comes over as insanity to me. It must be strange living in a country where there are only two parties effectively. And they always fight each other.

I know enough people though who are directly or closely affected by it. And in Europe our trade and growth is also connected with world trade and agreements. So whoever is president in the USA does affects us strongly.

European Politics tend to like the democratic choice for the ability to co-operate. That is as far as I picked up.

Outcome

So, the elections are done. Well there is the rumbling of lawsuits, recounts and more. Not to mention a suddenly liking of glitch-hop. But finally they are done. The air is clean again, well cleaner... there is still a lot of work ahead. But from Europe I can say things feel fresh as after a raincloud finally broke out. A few patches of rain are still in the valley. 

Rest Returns

The day after, the earth still drying, the smell of rain still in the air. A silence has risen in. A huge change in energy, from chaotic and ripping at people to more peaceful. At least what I pick up from Europe. 

The Gestalt can be strong indeed. So many people together creating so much energy... 

Lets hope that the future brings many positive things. Things like getting rid of Covid or at least lowering its danger to a common cold. An economy that pulls back up, shops that re-open. People we can meet again and activities that become available again. Positive stuff...

What is a Nightside Identity

Author: Masticina Akicta

Date: 18 October 2020

So what is a Nightside Identity

A Nightside Identity is a different Identity then you would use for your Family and Work. Much like a mask you would wear, a different name you use of your birth name.  This is done for many reasons, some obvious, some less obvious. 

Why have a Nightside Identity

Because you want your vampire activity not to bleed into the realm where your family or work can find it. Many people within the vampire community are not out of the coffin yet.

 The world can be very judgmental and people finding out you are part of the vampire community might raise questions. Not that legally there is anything bad about being member off the vampire community. It is just that some people are very judgmental and fear things they don't understand. It might affect your job chances or how your family treats you. 

Definitely if you are young, you rather not want to be institutionalized because your family disagrees with things.

It is about Safety Stupid

One of the things that the VC offers is insight in how to get blood, life energy and other things. It has a lot to teach about safe feeding, how to get and keep blood fine and methods that some might feel are troubling.

Just think of how your direct family would handle it if they learn you know a lot about drawing blood. Or knows you got a stacks of of needles. That won't go well with some people!

It would be the talk of the church, or talk in town if the town is small enough.

As much as some vampires can be out in public and teaching people about it. Not all can be out of the Coffin yet. 

There are also some people who want to hurt our community or members who are troubled and might endanger you. If they knew your real identity! 

Being Out and Proud

Some vampires are out, they are known! Usually their job also is within the pagan, occult or vampire community. A place where being not the usual is expected.

Be it writers or connected to jobs that are more open to things. Or at least not judging. Who judges the DJ who seems to have a rather interesting background, if said DJ makes great nights in the club! 

Or members of BDSM clubs who are known to be part of that world by some in the public. 

If a writer or artist is known to be part of the vampire community it can open up communications. Questions to them what the community stands for, what vampirism is and so on. There are good reasons for some members to be public. Obviously not everybody can be out of the coffin yet though. And some will never desire or can be out of the coffin. And that is fine. Safety first!

Out or In

So the question; Is it smart to have the world know about your vampirism and membership of the vampire community? That is up to you.

Obviously a few people will learn but there is a different between being out of the coffin totally or that only a few trusted people know it. 

This is a huge reason why we have a Nightside name, a mask we can wear to keep trouble from reaching our family and friends.

The reason why many strangers slide through the community. Their true name unknown. 

The Age of Fear

• Author: Masticina Akicta
• Date: 02 October 2020

The Age of Fear and War

I don't usually dive into semi political issues. As politics divides among everybody, family and friends included. And when we most need each others help we must be able to be there for each other. And be able to see beyond the battle lines we have put in the sand. 

But this is the Age of Fear and War. Not directly outwardly, though to be fair there have been fires and shootings and all kinds of horrible things spreading quickly through society. Huge pressure has released in the last few months in what it all broke down. 

The underlying reasons of such always were there but in the pressure given us by a Covid society it all just exploded out. People are afraid, they lost their jobs, they can't visit their family, parents, etc. Their kids are stuck at home and governments can't even stay on one line what is the best way to do things. 

Creating different groups within society which stand against each other. Much like groups always seem to grow into such existence. After all the whole political system is bound to create boundaries and an US versus THEM feel. To whom do you belong? Who do you support? 

Like a pressure cooker exploding, there always was pressure but took just a little more to break out in such a great wave of energy. Rupturing beyond any potential control. 

This has ruptured society in many ways. Defeating Covid requires working together and trusting each other. People like to work together fighting a common enemy. Nothing congeals a group as quickly as a common enemy. The virus is something we all can't beat on our own. And maybe we can't beat it at all. But we can try or at least lower the damage it can do to us, our friends or family and our societies. We have to try to deal with this disease in an intelligent way. There is little need to scream and attack each other over how we feel about the measures. And I don't believe that any one specific measure can truly win this war. If you could call it a war. But like the wars of old working together each doing their part might just make it work. And as always there are doomsayers.

We have to deal with a society which has changed a lot because of the pressures of covid regulations. Even in countries, where it is mostly cured or didn't come in, Covid is still a haunting ghost. From full lockdowns in what people are only very limited movement, to get food or walk their dog. To very light lock downs which limit certain activities in number of people that can come in. 

We are almost seven months in and this only has been started. A lot will change, a lot will never be the same. 

Who is the Enemy

It seems as if these days the pressure, fear and political influences have made everybody an enemy of everybody else. It has made it very hard to work together and there is tension in the air. 

In writing you have three kinds of enemies, an enemy you can point it like Sauron, Darth Vader, and/or the Emperor. 

There are enemies like nature, an earthquake, a storm, a twister, a vulcano or tsunami. 

And there is the lesser used dark half type of enemy. These are the dark half of the normal person. The shadow side turned into villain. 

So who is the enemy? Obviously COVID is a force of nature. But through our human nature we also have decided that there are other things we can point at. For instance China for being the source of the virus. Each other for not following or blindly following Covid Regulations. There are those who balk at the idea of putting on face masks. And there are those who wear them daily. There are those who eagerly await any potential capable vaccine. And there are those who don't believe in vaccines. 

But also the fear of the unknown, we can't see the virus, we can't see who is infected and possibly can give it to us so inherently it is harder to trust other people. As humanity we like physical contact but by the Covid rules we need to keep a certain distance. And worse these days all of use are masked, due to the face mask laws. Depending on your country of course. Currently in my country they are putting it more in use again after enough people flaunted its use. Look nothing wrong with a facemask. As irritating as they are. 

I shouldn't have to go into how currently politics has put people on a knifes edge. I rather not, that would push this blog post outside of its framing. But it is making working together harder, or at least being humane to each other. I tell you there is a lot of hurt being thrown around.

How othering works

This is quite a simple thing, if you go back to pre school and high school there were bullies. And a bully didn't need much reason to bully you. You wore glasses,  you had a funny accent or a minor speech disability then you might just get bullied. So the simply way to make someone into an "other" is to define yourself and then point at the "other" and point out how different they are. Simple as it is.

On large scale this leads to rather mindless finger pointing and misunderstanding. And of course throwing a lot of emotional bagage around. Kids run on emotions, grown ups usually are more in balance, but sometimes people definitely are not in balance between their Intelligence and Emotion. 

So currently with Covid, you got a number of sides. And that isn't helping any co-operation or working to the end goal. That end goal, somehow beat Covid. Deal with the details later! 

How Fear causes us to act without thinking

So lets talk about Fear, it is a strong survival system. Fear quickly pushes is to fight or flight. Or stand still and try not to be noticed. Fear is an automated thing but it also can be ingrained on an intelligent and emotional level. 

A lot of people are now throwing rather hurting words to each other because they are not thinking it through. They are fearing the situation, they don't understand the situation. And I understand, because there are a lot of things I don't understand or can't do myself. But I try to have some trust in those who have studied for it and are working on the situation. Nobody is perfect, they will mistakes too but I see not reason to jump into a fight over if vaccines work or not. Or be crass to someone because they don't fully agree with us. But have we even listened?

If we only listen to our fears and emotions we make very bad choices. Or even non choices. 

Society Breaking Down

Another thing is that the expected systems are breaking down. Things we had now might only exist under other rules. We lost a lot, even the countrie that still have certain shops open or can offer certain entertainment have to deal with stricter rules. 

And the first two months everybody quickly found out just how rotten it is to be stuck in home and not being able to do anything of use. In my country we could get food, and buy a few things at the stores that still opened. BUT many things were just shut down,  until a few months later new strict covid regulations came out and those business could open again under stricter rules. 

In certain places society has been put on halt, which means it isn't only lack of entertainment, which is a first thing to fall away, the luxuries. But also no jobs in certain sectors, no travel, no things beyond trips like food and basic requirements. This is driving people insane. They have lost a lot! 

And let's not go into the ever lingering tensions that even in the best days of society always where boiling under the surface. They are now all out! 

What can we do to stay Sane

First of all decide what is important to you and how far outside of such you willing to go temporarily. Your friends and family should come first. YOU first, than your family and friends. And only then those in the layers around it. Because you can't wear the weight of the world upon your shoulder. 

As the world burns around us all, we need to decide what is most important to us and protect those people. Because you can't protect everybody and you can't help everybody.

Sometimes we need mentally a day off, a day of peace. To recharge ourselves before we can to out there again in the storm that batters down on all of us.

I can suggest not to watch the news, or follow anything too crazy. Because there are things you can influence, things you can't influence and things that influence you. 

And if you can't influence it, maybe you shouldn't deal with it mentally either.

What we can do to help those close to us

It isn't odd to have a group of trusted friends and family. A small tribe, a tribe that protects each other and aids each other. That understands that they can't change the world all on themselves, and it isn't always their job. Their job is to protect their members and offer safety in dark times.

But be careful some tribes are more dangerous then others and will try to use you for their own goals. So, don't be blind. Be smart! If you feel that something is wrong in a tribe, be ready to leave it. 

Listening

The most important thing is listening. We don't listen anymore, we don't take the time to sit with others and listen. Listening is not the time you take actively listening, but it is also understanding someone from their position. Their life, their viewpoint, why do they think or do as they do. Because if you can't understand you more easily turn them into the "other" and othering lies at the core of many fights.